
I'm Angelina. Welcome to my newsletter and website. I have recently gotten a big lesson in psychic vampires with my mother visiting me from Canada the past few months while we are waiting to place her in a new retirement home.
Meanwhile, I realized my life force was being drained by her constant criticism, innuendo's, sabbotage, ill wishes, just to name a few things. And what to do about it.
How rhis all started is that I am a spiritualist and am often asked for weight loss spells. I have worked with different things but they were never felt quite right. However, I believe I have found the secret to losing weight spiritually, painlessly and permanently.
I believe I finally found a way to have permanent weight loss WITHOUT diet and deprivation. I've been using myself as a guinea pig and have been blessed with positive results.
You can read the
original article, written at the end of July, 2006 here!
But my goal is PERMANENT weight loss as I don't want to keep losing the same weight over and over. INNER CHANGES are what's required to lose the weight. It's all done spiritually with prayer, herbs, invocation, faith, etc and I'm here to tell you that IT WORKS!!!!!
To read the details about my success, here is the
success article, written and posted September, 2006.
But then I ran into trouble with out of control eating with my mother being here from Canada since October. It just snuck up on me as if it had a life of its own and I didn't even realize what was going on. There IS obviously a connection and I WILL move heaven and earth to figure it out and let it go! To read about what I discovered, here is the link to the
setback article, written and posted January 15, 2007.
According to a DOVE commercial that I have seen on local television, "every mother has the power to make her daughter feel beautiful". What about when a mother has the power (and uses it) to make her daughter feel ugly, unwanted, unsuccessful, unloveable, fat or stupid, just to name a few?
How about all of the above? By the time I realized my eating had gotten out of control, I also sadly admitted to myself the underlying feelings were ALL that I just mentioned.
To fight this form of psychic vampirism, I wrote down on a list all the ways I was affected, be it physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, etc and handle each feeling separately.
Here is what I came up with and how I resolved it or at least started to, anyway. My discoveries are still a work in progress so please bear with me. It's all about babysteps and seeing/feeling what works for you. These worked for ME. We are ALL learning. To read about what I discovered and worked out, here is the link to the article I wrote on
getting back to life, written and posted January 22, 2007.
The label PSYCHIC VAMPIRE immediately reveals our attitudes toward people who take energy. Not as obvious, it also reveals our attitudes toward the people from whom they take. A vampire, for all intents and purposes, is a taker who drains his/her victims.
To help and heal ourselves and each other, we must first recognize the person who is taking energy from another person can only do so if the person they are taking from agrees to it on some level. I obviously did with my mother. Freedom comes when we stop projecting our fear of powerlessness onto others, blaming them and victimizing ourselves.
Permission to give or take does not need to be granted on a conscious individualized basis. It comes from an underlying attitude about giving and taking.
Our experiences in life all include give and take in varying degrees and mirror back to us where we are on the spectrum selfishness and selflessness. For myself, I was bombarded with what seemed like EVERYONE, including complete strangers, telling me I must be spoiled because I was an only child. The stigma that went with being an only child was that he/she would be selfish and have no idea of how to SHARE or GIVE.
Selfishness and self-centeredness are generally viewed as undesirable traits. Selflessness is usually viewed positively. Both require balancing.
Those who give selflessly without balance can become doormats or martyrs or may "kill with kindness". They may find it difficult to say "NO". Those who take without thought are often very kind people who have learned inappropriate ways to get energy. They may also be obviously selfish and thoughtless of others. These are examples of opposite ends of the spectrum. Most of us sit somewhere closer to the middle and as with all living things our abilities and balance fluctuate.
The giver's attitude of willingness creates an opening that enables a taker to connect to the giver. Connecting to each other, although generally unseen, literally creates a physical connection or "cords" that we just do not see with the naked eye. Various therapists and coaches have developed various techniques to cut these ties that bind as a method of working with or cutting serious ties that prevent us from being ourselves.
I myself have a technique that I have used for years to cut cords, ties, binds, etc from any person, any city, any situation (for example creditors, if you are going through bankruptcy) but it involves the ocean. I am researching different ways to be able to make the same accomplishments on dry land for those who do not live on either of the coasts.
Those we mistakenly call vampires are not necessarily bad people. For instance, a friend who is very needy at that particular point in time and space drains the hell out of you because she needs to talk on and on about a bad relationship. Most of us are guilty of this at some point and that does not make us bad people.
Now, the worst attacks I have ever had were from my mother when she gets critical or pushes the worst possible buttons in me at the worst possible time. I used to get extremely weak, dizzy and have heart palpitations. I have not experienced this sort of thing for a long time as I have done a lot of spiritual work since this used to happen and I feel I have grown and strengthened. Doesn't mean she doesn't still try but now I fight back. It may sound petty but if she makes a negative comment about my hair, I make one back. If she makes a snide remark about the house needing to be cleaned, etc I ask her to pitch in and help. See what I mean?
I am not a tacky and petty person by nature and I hate this "two-step" type of thing but if I ignore her, the resentment piles up inside and I end up shoving it down with food. So for the time being, if getting through her attacks involves fighting fire with fire, or rather a "bitchfest", so be it.
The second worst attacks I have ever seen and/or experienced are from sick or dying people. Over 10 years ago, I had a friend/teacher who was dying of AIDS and I took his calls because I felt sorry for him. He usually always managed to "take a bite out of me" (or so it felt) and would always manage to pick at me, push a button, whatever until he had me upset or reduced to tears. Then, miraculously, he suddenly became cheerful and loving and would terminate the call.
He felt better and I felt worse as after we would hang up, I immediately had to throw up, use the bathroom as if I had an intestinal flu, develop abdominal cramps or all of the above. Even if it was a pleasant conversation, the same thing would happen. I eventually stopped returning his calls. Had to. He was feeding off of me and it would take me a few hours to recover.
Thinking back over this experience, I remember that my eating was definitely out of control during the time this was going on. As a matter of fact, 6 months before he died, he tried to rape me in spirit. I was awoken out of a sound sleep by a "body" on top of me that was trying to have sex with me. I pushed him off and he disappeared but the next morning I woke up with a helluva irritation "down there" that was bad enough to cause me to visit a gynocologist. First yeast infection I had in over 20 years! Not pleasant.
Something came to me last night while I was writing this article and I can't say for sure that I have solved the mystery of out of control eating when associating with vampire types but it MAY be part of the puzzle, at least for ME: MY EATING IS OUT OF CONTROL BECAUSE I AM TRYING TO RECAPTURE OR REPLENISH THE LIFE FORCE ENERGY THAT WAS TAKEN FROM ME BY THE PSYCHIC VAMPIRE'S ATTACK.
NOTE: The best way that I can describe the interaction with my mother is that there exists a slow but deadly form of psychic vampirism combined with bad mother-daughter karma. I am going to find a way out of this and what I REALLY need (other than food) to replenish what I lost via an attack. Then I will help others find a way out as well. I will be adding stuff to my getting back to life list as I discover what just might work.
If anyone has anything to share, you are more than welcome to shoot over an email.
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